i guess it's normal to be jealous of other people. to be jealous with they have, be it in the form of material stuff, money, relationship, life, family and what not. after all, we're just human. we're not perfect, in fact, we don't need to be perfect after all. we just need to be who we are. just the way we are.

i think i was different back then. very much different. experience has taught me well. :) being in a broken long distance relationship, having a divorced parents, it all somehow sculptured me into what i am today. i am not sure whether it is a good thing or a bad thing, but then again, this is how i decide to live my life.

i know God has bigger plans for me. and i shall accept it wholeheartedly. insyaAllah.

but i think i really need to do something about this whole stubborn thingy. hmm.