:)

INSTRUCTION :
a) Bold the statements that are true to you.
b) Italicize the statements that you WISH are true.
c) Leave the fibs alone.

Then, stab 3 people to do the same test...

1) I miss somebody right now. ( u know who u are )
2) I do not watch tv these days.
3) I wear glasses or contact lenses.
4) I love to play video games.
5) I have tried marijuana.
6) I have been in a threesome. (never wei!)
7) I believe honesty is usually the best policy.(it depends actually.
8) I have changed mentally over the last year.
9) I curse. (dah kena marah dah pun)
10) I’m totally smart. (like super smart tak payah belajar kind of smart, haha can ar)
11) I’ve broken someone’s bones.
12) I’m paranoid sometimes. n
13) I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
14) I need money right now.
15) I love sushi.
16) I talk really, really fast.
17) I have long hair.
18) I have lost money in Las Vegas.
19) I have at least one sibling.
20) I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.
21) I couldn’t survive without Caller ID.
22) I like the way I look. (im grateful with it)
23) I am usually pessimistic.
24) I have a lot of mood swings.
25) I have a hidden talent.
26) I’m always hyper.
27) I have a lot of friends.
28) I have pecked someone of the same sex.
29) I enjoy talking on the phone.
30) I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
31) I love to shop.
32) Enjoy window shopping.
33) I would rather shop than eat.
34) I don’t hate anyone.
35) I’m a pretty good dancer.
36) I’m completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
37) I have a cell phone.
38) I believe in God.
39) I am an adrenaline junkie.
40) I watch MTV on a daily basis.
41) I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
42) I’ve rejected someone before.
43) I want to have children in the future.
44) I have changed a diaper before.
45) I’ve called the cops on a friend before.
46) I’m not allergic to anything.
47) I have a lot to learn.
48) I’m shy around members of the opposite sex.
49) I have made a move on a friends’ significant other or crush in the past.
50) I have tried alcohol before.
51) I own the South Park movie.
52) I would die for my best friend.
53) I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza.
54) I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
55) I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.
56) Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
57) I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it.
58) I am happy at this moment!
59) I’m obsessed with girls/guys.
60) I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I’ve ever met.
61) I study for tests most of the time.
62) I am comfortable with who I am right now.
63) I have more than just my ears pierced.
64) I walk barefoot wherever I can.
65) I have jumped off a bridge.
66) I love sea turtles.
67) I spend ridiculous money on makeup.
68) Plan on achieving a major goal & dream.
69) I’m proficient in a musical instrument.
70) I hate office jobs.
71) I love sci-fi movies.
72) I think water rules.
73) I went college out of state.
74) I like sausages.
75) I love kisses.
76) I fall for the worst people.
77) I adore bright colours.
78) I can’t live without black eyeliner.
79) I don’t know why the hell I just did this stupid thing.
80) I usually like covers better than originals.
81) I can pick up things with my toes.
82) I can whistle.
83) I can move my tongue in waves, much like a snake’s slither.
84) I have ridden/owned a horse.
85) I still have every journal I’ve written in.
86) I can’t stick to a diet.
87) I talk in my sleep.
88) I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.
89) I have jazz in my blood.
90) Climbing trees is a brilliant past-time.
91) I wear a toe ring.
92) I can’t stand at LEAST one person that I work with.
93) I am a caffeine junkie.
94) I cosplay or know what cosplaying is.
95) I have been to over 15 conventions.
96) I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical the better.
97) I’m an artist.
98) I only clean my room when necessary.
99) I like a person of the same sex. (not only like, but love! haha, the best friends!)
100) I love being happy.

i tag whoever who has the free time to do this. and is so bored out of his/her wits. haha.

p/s i found out something oh-so-sweet from the boyfriend just now. heeeeee! even i didn't think of that! sayang! you're the sweeeeeetest!

morning ramblings.

sometimes i feel too tired, with everything. tired of studying. tired of having to do nothing. tired of doing exactly the same thing everyday, though basically its actually nothing much. tired being myself. but yeah. you get the idea. do you know how tiring it is to please other people? i'm just 22 for goodness sake! sometimes i just want to let down my hair and go wild. i don't know. maybe go clubbing, smoke and all. but at the end of the day, that whole scenario is just not me. i'm just a goody goody two shoes. the so called sweet little thing. yeah yeah. pretty boring.

i have a clear picture of what i wanted to do with my life. yeah. i guess sometimes being in a situation that i am few years back somehow helped.

i have a dream. i've always wanted to work offshore. yeah. but its no fun seriously. but i really really want to. pretty big dreams right? yeah i know. but unfortunately, mostly guys would be hired. yeah it sucks! but its not wrong to dream right? so i'll keep on dreaming. who knows. i might have a chance. :)

aren't you afraid of the future? you can plan so much, but everything is in God's hand. oh how i wish i could have things my way. would be lovely! but then it just wouldn't be right then would it? and believe me, i have plan so many things for next year; which also includes working in Dubai. haha. yeap. anything for the bucks. haha. mata duitan i am not. but for future investment. really!

i don't know what inspired me to write all these things. i'm just feeling a bit down. but i uess i gotta paint myself then. smile azalia! smile then everything will be alright. i hope.

// editted

so i found out about the big fuss. apparently the selected students will be interviewed for some sort of accreditation for the faculty. we have the iso thingy already. but apparently its something big, this new thing. hmm. and they're like counting on us to get the 5 years accreditation. hoho. the interview will be on next monday, which would coincide with my undang undang test ( yeah, i haven't got my license yet. hihi.) but i think i can make it. should call the guy tomorrow though. haiyamaaa. and yeaay! we're going to pd this saturday! looking forward to that. and no, not for holidays silly. to find a place for me, a room maybe. i don't know, for next year practical. another month to go! :)

didn't do much today. same ol same ol thing.

only that i went out with zia and faez at night. just to catch up with things. thank god they both finally have a place for internships. :) congrats babe! and not to forget, GOOD LUCK wan for your interview tomorrow!. make me proud! schlumberger tu. hihi.

random.
don't you feel annoyed with those people who can't write properly? like for example, tHiS kInD oF WrItInG. tak letih ke? oh my god la kan. i yg tengok pun letih. hehe. no offense to anyone who did this. but cute ke buat mcm tu? like seriously, i want to know. haha.

i'm not that fond of shortform. you know, as in kampung jadi kg. you know what i mean. but sometimes it annoys me that people use shortform in sms's and believe me, i'm not so much of a shortform kind of person and it really bugs me when i have to ask people to translate certain words. haha. yes i am that bad. fyi, i write mostly in full when i send messages to people.

anyway, am going to uitm this thursday. apparently one of the lecturers wanted to see a few of us about something, which again bugs me hence i have to go and find out what it is. haha. curiosity kills the cat so they say. guess i just have to wait till thursday then. :)

one more day to go. sigh. the time is so s l o w nowadays. tolong la cepat next year.

on long distance relationship.

HOW TO MAKE A LONG DISTANCE RELATIONSHIP WORKS.

taken from: http://www.wikihow.com/Make-a-Long-Distance-Relationship-Work

1. Ask the important questions at the onset, to make sure you are both clear on the parameters of the relationship. These can be difficult and awkward questions to ask, but will save you great heartache and misunderstanding down the line.

2. Communicate in some way every day - more than once if possible. Since you won't be seeing each other, it's important to establish and maintain an emotional connection. These don't have to be long, in-depth conversations (though those should occur sometimes). Tell each other about your little triumphs and tragedies. Ask for advice. Use an instant messenger program or VoIP for real-time chat, or webcams for that visual connection. E-mail is great so make sure you use it, especially if long-distance phone calls put a strain on your budget. Write love letters. Send small gifts or flowers for no reason. In this case, quantity is as important as quality. You may discover an advantage over others whose partner is close at hand - you don't take communication for granted!

3. Take advantage of the benefits a long distance relationship offers: more time with friends and/or family, no arguments over toothpaste caps, the pleasure of seeing your sweetheart again after a long absence, time to mull your options (rather than snapping at your partner impulsively) before you respond to that email s/he wrote that seemed so rude the first time you read it, etc. Most important, being far apart gives you a chance to maintain your individuality - something that can get lost in the shuffle when couples spend all their free time together.

4. Pursue common interests, even if it means pursuing them apart. If there's a movie you're both interested in seeing, watch it individually and then call each other afterward and talk about it. Read a certain book at the same time. Stargaze while on you're on the phone (sounds romantic, but how to stargaze? sian you sejuk nnt. haha). Set your watches to go off at the same time every day, and synchronize your alarm with that of your partner. Make it a point to think of each other when your watch goes off, and revel in the fact that he or she is thinking about you, too. Find creative ways to bond.

5. Avoid the temptation to be controlling. People have free will and no one can or should control another person. As long as you are both interested in being in the relationship, you will stick with it and distance will not make a difference. As soon as one of you decides the other is not a good match - or someone else is a better match - your relationship ends, whether you live 3000 miles apart, two streets over, or share the same bed with your wedding picture on the wall. You are going to have to trust each other completely if this relationship is going to work.

6. Talk about your future together. Assuming that ultimately you'd want to live together, discussing how you're going to get to that point will help you prove to each other that the relationship is going somewhere and that your efforts and frustrations are not in vain.

7. Know when to say good-bye. While this is tough in any relationship, this can be especially hard over long distances. When communication becomes one-sided or sparse for too long and for no apparent reason, when arguments (yes, you'll have them) become too frequent, when the whole thing just seems like more trouble than it's worth, it's time to re-evaluate the relationship. Either you'll decide to go your separate ways, or you'll get closer for having overcome another obstacle to your happiness together.*

*TIPS*
1. A long distance relationship is no different from a proximal relationship in that they both require a great deal of work, excellent communication, patience, sacrifice and understanding. But you will have to work extra hard to maintain the communication and to stay focused enough to not let your daily life interfere with your desire to be with the other person. Don't forget them or you can forget the relationship and it will all be over.

2. One of the hardest parts of a long distance relationship is connecting when one person gets busier than the other. If this happens in a relationship it is important to maintain communication. If you are the busy person, try to warn your partner ahead of time that you will be working many hours and may have limited time. If you are the not-as-busy person, take advantage of the time by picking up a new hobby, getting in shape, reading a new book, etc. Flexibility is very important.

3. It helps to have a solid time in the future for when the long distance part of the relationship will end, no matter the time length. Without it, the relationship can begin to mold into something that is always distant - even with great communication. With it, each person can see the point at which the distance will end and work harder to keep emotions readily available.

4. When talking to your partner, take note of things they enjoy the most (hobbies, day-to-day activities, etc...) and do a little research on it so you have more to do when you see them next. For example: If your partner likes to dance, find the location of different clubs where you will see them next. If you don't know how to dance, take lessons and you will impress them by your willingness to make an effort on their behalf.

5. Buy a game that you can play together over the internet, such as an MMORPG (massively multi-player online role playing game). You will be able to chat while playing and it will give a greater feeling of togetherness.

6. Mail each other scented clothes.

7. Send each other spontaneous ecards.

8. Make a creative countdown (ie: photo calendar, a drawing for each day showing another thing you love about the person) and mail it to your partner to enjoy until you see each other next.

9. Do not set unreasonable expectations for your visit. Fantasizing about the visit is fine, but not outloud or by email to your partner. Instead, enjoy the excitement of the surprises to come.

10. Buy a webcam so you can chat face to face and see each other, so when you meet you will remember what they look like.

11.Consider the fact that living far apart gives you both a chance to grow as individuals. Some couples break up to "find themselves", but in a long distance relationship you both have enough space to do your own things and still have a connection.

THE DO'S AND DONT'S IN A LONG DISTANCE RELATIONSHIP.

Do’s

1) Establish an effective communication channel
The very first thing that you must do in a long distance relationship is to establish an effective communication channel. Most people will think that telephone is the most convenient mode of communication but apart from the telephone services, there are some other alternative you can use. Instant messenger, emails, VOIP phone and conventional mails can be very effective if you know how to use them. Each of the communication channels has its own advantages and disadvantages and therefore you must start to explore each of them to enhance your communication experience.

2) Plan to meet each other
There is nothing more important than planning to meet each other again at an interval of time throughout the period of your long distance relationship. This will help both you and your partner to catch up with each other over the things that you cannot do while apart. The anticipation of seeing each other again will always give you the excitement, hope and as well as eliminating the lonely feeling in your LDR.

3) Build hobby that you can both share
By building and keeping a hobby, both of you will have something to discuss and work on throughout your distance relationship. Finding something to do online can be quite interesting judging from its speed and reach ability but never leave out conventional hobby as well because you do not need to have your partner’s physical present to share a hobby.

4) Surprise your partner
Occasionally surprise you partner with cards, gifts, letter and flower out of their expectation apart from your normal correspondence. Put your imagination to use and your partner will be sure to love your effort in keeping them happy. Sending the unexpected gifts to your partner will always spice up your distance relationship regardless how far your partner may be.

5) Capture and share that interesting moment
Throughout the period of your LDR, you can always capture some interesting moment of yours by exchanging photos, video clips and as well as audio recording. This will indirectly keep your partner informed on what has happen in your life despite the physical distance.

Don’ts

1) Settle for a temporary replacement
One of the mistakes that a distance relationship couple often make is to settle for a temporary replacement when their partner is not physical around. By letting a third party into your life, you will not only put your distance relationship to risk but you will also break the mutual trust and agreement that you make. Although it may not be done intentionally but this type of mistake will be very costly to your long distance relationship.

2) Take the relationship lightly
The absence of your partner does not give you the license to dictate and manipulate the relationship. You must remember that, your partner has their own right to participate in any decision making toward the well being of your relationship regardless where there are. A long distance relationship is also as important as a normal relationship and your partner has their own right to be treated fairly.

3) Wait and see attitude
Most of the failures in distance relationship that we observed are contributed by the wait and see attitude of the couples themselves. This was caused by the insecurity of the couple as they do not think that the LDR will work but at the same time they do not want to put a stop to the relationship. Let me tell you this, if you plan to have this kind of attitude, refrain from walking into one at the first place because both you and your partner will suffer in the relationship. In a LDR, both partners must be committed and proactive in bringing the relationship to a higher level.

4) Suspicion
There are no rooms for suspicion in a long distance relationship. In order for you to survive your distance relationship, you must learn to trust your partner whole heartedly. A single suspicion will break the bond you have for each other and it is a beginning of the end if you start to suspect your partner at any point of your LDR. Although it is easier said than done but trust me, if your partner is apt to do something unfaithful to you, they will still do it under your nose. Therefore there is no need for you to create such unnecessary stress in your LDR.

5) Succumb to negative comment on LDR
Couples in distance relationship always make a mistake by believing that LDR do not work. The negative impression you have in LDR will eventually hunt you down and destroy your relationship if you choose to listen to the negative comment. Therefore, once you have decided to enter into a long distance relationship, you must learn to believe that your relationship will work.

three.


:)

love you.

i miss.

:(

i am so TIRED.

went to the post office just now. why? secret again. haha.

crap. gotta go. have to masak nasi. =)

wanna know what i do everyday?

wake up.

turn on the laptop.

check emails, friendster, facebook and all.

download moooovieeees and series (supernatural only, please thank you). haha. like seriously. like right now, am downloading i know who killed me and also staardust! been trying to download the black dahlia since forever. but to no avail. sigh.

i'm not complaining! really! but i wish i have something to do. but right now, i am kinda busy. hehe. busy with what?

secret. will let you know after i'm done with it. :)

p/s something wrong with the keyboard, especially "w". stress! haha, but who to blame but me. bukak almost 24/7 kut. hihi.

interesting day today.
haha.
lets just say, i'll be looking forward to this every month. hoho. *wink*

talking with an alternate you.

http://www.alternateyou.blogspot.com

go on. read it. :)

read it once and i'm hooked! love it. i am no writer and i have no idea how to express how i love the story. haha. seriously go read it.

and i especially love this part: the refrigerator note that was given from wise guy to sugar.

how far is really far sayang?
60, 600 or 6000 miles?
how would we measure it?
is it by the winding rivers,
or by the stretches of land,
that stand wide between us?

i think far is when i can't hold your hands,
and it's when i can't hear your laugh;
far is when i can't enjoy your lovely smile,
and when i'm unable to look into your eyes.
that is how far really far is to me dearest;
and i don't wanna be far away from you.

and it made me think of the boyfie. :)

short ramblings.

+ one of my baby cousin was admitted to damansara specialist hospital yesterday. something got to do with his lung, asthma i think and he's only 2 years old.

+ i think i miss waking up early and going to shah alam. and i think i miss my best friends.

+ i have to start thinking of the things i need to bring to port dickson next january. too early you say? haha, at least i have something to do. blergh.

+ i need insurance. should get one when i start my practical.

+ i'm done with my 4 years course! yeaaaay!

+ i need to buy external hard disk to store all my fave series and movies. pronto!

+ i need to buy mp3 player. p/s pd is soo gonna be boring.

+ should i cut my hair or keep it long? hmmm. help needed! i like it short, but some would prefer it to be long. sigh. we'll see.

+ i wanna invest in something.

+ i wanna do my masters in UK. in environmental pls. :) insyallah.

+ i can't wait for my convo next year. i want floweers! and especially from u baby!

+ i hope the bf will be here when i grad though. *wishing really hard*

shah alam - midvalley - one utama

finally! i get to see stardust after so long! sigh. such a romantic and lovely fairytale story. my new fave movie. :) am downloading it now though. but its not so clear but sigh, i'll download another one soon. hahaha.

tiring day today.

and ooh b, i love u. *wink*

// updated: thank you FARIZ and kak emie for taking me to see stardust. hoho, next time ajak la lagi. byk cerita hantu coming soon. *peace* =)

some of the pictures.

the best friends :)

the group members with our supervisor.

with the classmates.

with my best friend and the partner in class. :)

hie

my name is ________.

and i'm addicted to sms. :() ---> confused person i am. haha.

got this from friendster:

ARIES - The Irresistible One
(3/21-4/19)
Nice Love is one of a kind.
Great listeners.
Lover not a fighter, but will still knock you out.
Trustworthy.
Always happy. (i may look happy, but deep down its like a tornado)
Loud.
Talkative.
Outgoing.
VERY FORGIVING. (so true, i find it annoying sometimes. marah sekejap giler ok!)
Loves to make out. (hahahaha!)
Has a beautiful smile. (tipuuuu! my smile cacat)
Generous.
Strong. (this is true.)
THE MOST IRRESISTIBLE.

LIBRA - The Partner for Life
(9/23-10/22)
Caring and kind.
Smart.
Center of attention.
High appeal.
Has the last word.
Good to find, hard to keep. (really b?)
Fun to be around.
Extremely weird but in a good way.
Good sense of humor!!!
Thoughtful.
Always gets what he or she wants.
Loves to joke.
Very popular.
Silly, fun and sweet.

morning ramblings

nowadays online boutique pops out like there's no tomorrow. haha. seriously!

i just woke up. and now is 4 in the morning. thought of online-ing with the boyfie, but i'm not sure where he is right now. he's online but not in front of the laptop. nak call takde credit. benci la. BENCI. at times, long distance relationship really really bugs me. especially when at times i feel so stressed up and the time i need him the most, but i have to consider the time difference and all. eeee! benci giler ok. but what to do. its his choice.

anyway, might be going out with the classmates tomorrow, for the last time that is. hopefully jadi. :)

to wait or not to wait to wait or not to wait to wait or not to wait to wait or not to wait.

its over.

finaaaally its over!

sigh. the last presentation. it went well i guess. we had the same panel as last semester BUT we have this external examiner from the industry and thank god he's so nice! everyone did well, there are some mistake here and there but its all good i guess. and i am so happy! right after that, we took pictures, and hugged everyone since this is the last time we're gonna see each other. not until next year that is. sigh. gonna miss them so so so much. especially noe and wan. best friends right? :) sayang korang k!

i can't believe it. the day that i've been waiting for so long and its finally here and i just can't believe that its true. i wish sayang is here with me now. :( everything seems so surreal. the next time we'll see each other, we'll lead another life. a new chapter in our life as a working person. a real engineer! gosh. mcm kelakar pun ada jugak. hehe. aaaa, rindu dah. how la like this? ramai orang nk rindu. :( hate this feeling. boyfriend jauh, best friend pun jauh. sigh. waaaaa!

anyways, good luck for practical everyone!

see you next year. sigh.

terrifying day tomorrow.

okaaaay.

tomorrow will be presenting our final year project in front of lecturers, REAL engineers and hmm, other people. shit! wish me luck people! i need all the luck in the world. hopefully i won't get out of the room crying. :( takutnyeeeeee!

ok bye.

am i right or am i wrong?

it sure is nice to be appreciated doesn't it? i just wish, for once i didn't have to ask him to do things that somehow makes me feel appreciated, if you'd know what i mean (you don't? hmm, nevermind). sigh. kenapa la guys have to be sooooo ignorant about all these things? why oh why? don't you see it means something to me? :( clearly you don't. but i love you anyhow.

// anyway, unrelated topic.

presentation is on monday. 11 pm.

zombie

its almost 230 in the morning now. and its raining. sejuk! :) had the lousiest day today. did nothing but to watch movies. been watching nightmare on elm street (haha, oldies sangat kan?). although its an old movie, but somehow macam takut jugak k tengok. can't help it. i love to watch scary/ horror/ ghost movies but takut. how la like that kan? that's why i love to watch that type of movie with the boyfie. hehe, kesian dia. and btw he hates ghost movie. he bans me from watching ghost movies in the cinema with him. haha, said that its not worth the money. sigh. but thank god i have a brother who is a sucker for all these supernatural being. the last movie i watch would be apartment 1303. and now, cerita hantu baru di cinema mcm mushroom tumbuh after hujan k. if im not mistaken, now there's this indonesian movie, kuntilanak2 and lantai 13. coming soon would be movies from korea, japan, and malaysia. orang minyak, made in malaysia. hihi. we'll see la kan. the only malay movie hantu i tengok in cinema would be pontianak harum sundal malam 1 and 2 and also jangan pandang belakang. :)

other than that, i do like comedies. like for example, chuck and larry. one of the funniest ever! anything with adam sandler definitely worth seeing. seriously. then there's something about mary, the one adam sandler with drew barrymore, click, water boy, big daddy. bla bla. you know what i mean kan? :)

hmm, ape pulak melalut smpi sini? haha. i'm still not sleepy. blame it on me for waking up at 3 in the evening (i slept at 7 mind u). tomorrow will be going to ampang, to wanchu's house. insyallah. if there is no plan whatsoever with my friends.

aaaaa, boringnya. sampai january k mcm ni. hmm. let's see. i have a list of people to belanja for next year. haha. and they are:

1. mama (of coz)
2. wanchu (for this greaaat oppurtunity)
3. chor (for pecahkan the kaca thing at your house)
4. the roomies (asiari jom!)
5. the bitch, aka raziyah.

and not to forget, of coz u sayang. :) tunggu u balik je. then anything u want k? haha.

p/s apa kaitannya zombie with this post pun i have no idea. haha.

stardust :)

heylo!

last paper today. how was it? it was ok i guess. :) now hoping that i would pass all the subjects. kalau dpt deans list lg bagus. insyallah. said goodbye to the roomies since i'll be staying home from now on. it was pretty sad. in a way la. sigh. i miss them already. to noe, ina and ana. sayang korang k! insyallah kalau jumpa next year asiari jom! and now wondering what should i do this hols. hmm, thought of working tho, but we'll see. :)

presentation will be on this 12/13th. sangat la nervous. since the allied supervisor will be there as well. sigh. wish me luck guys!

and sayang, thanks for calling td. i love you very the much. :) you call terus i dpt jawab my finals. hihi. what else ey. hmm, my left eye mcm sakit sikit. hmm. prolly coz i sleep with contacts td. but i was so tired! masa tgh check the answers pun i boleh terdozed off sebentar. see how sleepy i am? hehe.

think i wanna go see a movie la tomorrow. someone asked me to watch stardust. :)

matters of the heart.

hmm. we could never know how other people really feels about something. and that is one thing that everyone could never control. no matter how hard you try to figure it but you can never will. sometimes i found myself wondering if whatever i'm feeling right now is real. at certain point i sometimes would feel emotionless. as if i don't feel anything about that certain someone. but sometimes, crying makes me realize that the feeling i have inside is real. being further away from your loved ones really mengporak perandakan your mind. that's one thing for sure. the feelings would gone haywire. sometimes you feel secured, but tomorrow you might feel the opposite. and that's what i'm feeling now. i wonder if its normal for someone to feel or think like this? or is it i am the only one? i hope whatever i'm feeling now, all the unsecured feelings would just go away. i certainly don't need this feelings whatsoever. especially when i still have another paper and final year presentation around next week. sigh.

bad bad feelings, please go away. i don't need you. not now not ever.

tiring day. like seriously. its 0111 in the morning and i'm kinda sleepy. contemplating whether to sleep or to stay up. hmm. i don't think i'll see u online today right? which makes the purpose for me to come home today seems like *poof*. if you know what i mean. sigh.

anyways, thank god law and accounts was not too bad. saya mahu pass! the next paper will be on the 6th so i think i'll get back to shah alam prolly on sunday. since again, i dont think i'll see you online that much. hmm. a bit pissed though. yeah yeah. whatever la kan.

not in the mood. will blog later.

feeling super duper depressed. benci. i want my best friend. :(