morning ramblings.

sometimes i feel too tired, with everything. tired of studying. tired of having to do nothing. tired of doing exactly the same thing everyday, though basically its actually nothing much. tired being myself. but yeah. you get the idea. do you know how tiring it is to please other people? i'm just 22 for goodness sake! sometimes i just want to let down my hair and go wild. i don't know. maybe go clubbing, smoke and all. but at the end of the day, that whole scenario is just not me. i'm just a goody goody two shoes. the so called sweet little thing. yeah yeah. pretty boring.

i have a clear picture of what i wanted to do with my life. yeah. i guess sometimes being in a situation that i am few years back somehow helped.

i have a dream. i've always wanted to work offshore. yeah. but its no fun seriously. but i really really want to. pretty big dreams right? yeah i know. but unfortunately, mostly guys would be hired. yeah it sucks! but its not wrong to dream right? so i'll keep on dreaming. who knows. i might have a chance. :)

aren't you afraid of the future? you can plan so much, but everything is in God's hand. oh how i wish i could have things my way. would be lovely! but then it just wouldn't be right then would it? and believe me, i have plan so many things for next year; which also includes working in Dubai. haha. yeap. anything for the bucks. haha. mata duitan i am not. but for future investment. really!

i don't know what inspired me to write all these things. i'm just feeling a bit down. but i uess i gotta paint myself then. smile azalia! smile then everything will be alright. i hope.

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so i found out about the big fuss. apparently the selected students will be interviewed for some sort of accreditation for the faculty. we have the iso thingy already. but apparently its something big, this new thing. hmm. and they're like counting on us to get the 5 years accreditation. hoho. the interview will be on next monday, which would coincide with my undang undang test ( yeah, i haven't got my license yet. hihi.) but i think i can make it. should call the guy tomorrow though. haiyamaaa. and yeaay! we're going to pd this saturday! looking forward to that. and no, not for holidays silly. to find a place for me, a room maybe. i don't know, for next year practical. another month to go! :)