no matter how hard you try.
and this is definitely one of it.
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
Friday, October 24, 2008
angry post
i've never felt so stupid in my whole life.
seriously.
why on earth i did what i did back then? it was such a fucking stupid thing to do. yes, i sort of could've guessed it back then, but noooo i just haaaave to think ever so positively about it and let myself indulge in the feelings. although it was not a strong feeling but still !!
once u did this yes i could forgive you.
but twice? sumpah sampai mati i'll never forgive you. yes i know even nabi maafkan umatnya. but insyallah, i'll not allow myself to be in the same situation again. i'll make sure of that.
i want to make this is truly the end of everything.
i've been hurt long enough and you truly deserve a slap from me, no not only slaps, but kicking and belasah-ing and everything. lucky you're there you #$%^$#.
THE END.
Sunday, October 19, 2008
Saturday, October 18, 2008
tiring day today. yes its a saturday, bt yours truly had to wake up early today. the friends have decided to visit the klcc skybridge, and since the ticks is pretty much limited so the guys had to go there early and queue up. and as for me, since agak jauh kan so nevermind la sampai lambat. :D
after we got the ticks, we went to sungai wang for our karaoke session! it was fun, definitely. then went back to klcc and went up to the 41st floor. we got around 10 mins to check out the surroundings and take pictures. tau takpe, 10 mins je okay. but oh well. had fun posing in front of the SLRs. :) and later, went back to sungai wang since them friends wanted to buy comics there (hmph). tempted to go shopping but decided to wait till next week bila gaji masuk. hahaha.
nothing much really. went out at around 8 in the morning, reached home at around 9.30 at night. but it was fun. i was so freaking tired with all the walkings.
and ooh, fai! finally had my hotcakes! after soooo looooooong. it was yummyliscious alright! :D
*craving for mooore*
p/s wonder if i should go to ukm tomorrow. hmmm. malas gils.
insyallah, this december. penang here i come! :D
Thursday, October 16, 2008
and again
1. Who will you be with Saturday night?
+ the uitm peeps.
2. What woke you up this morning?
+ er, alarm clock?
3. If you took a drug test would you pass it?
+ yeah.
4. Is tomorrow going to be a good night?
+ should be. its friday!
5. Did you kiss or hug anyone today?
+ kiss mama's hand before work only.
6. Who was the last person you rode in a car with?
+ pakcik cab. haha.
7. How many myspace accounts do you have?
+ none
8. What was your first thought this morning?
+ malasnye nk bgn. its the same thing everyday.
9. Do or did you like school?
+ i love my school days, be it secondary, matrix or university. :)
10. Would you take a bullet for anyone?
+ if its worth it then maybe i guess. *shudders*
11. Where would you like to live?
+ tmn tun dr ismail is the place to be!
12. Do long distance relationships work?
+ depends. it takes 2 people to tango. so yeah. paham2 sendiri lah.
13. What do you want to be when you grow up?
+ haha, doctor. poyo je.
14. Where do you see yourself in 5 years?
+ dubai/qatar? big dreams baby!
15. Who is your number one friend ?
+ mommy
16. Who do you wish you were with right now?
+ keanu reeves. haha.
17. Who was the last person that left you a comment?
+ hmm, tak ingat.
18. How often do you log in to friendster?
+ not that often. facebook yo!
19. Would you rather talk on the phone or chat in IM?:
+ depends.
20. How many car accidents have you been in?
+ none, coz no license maaa. haha. (suka sendiri)
21. Do you listen to music every day?
+ yes. if not i'll die of boredom esp pergi balik office.
22. Do you still go trick or treating?
+ nope
23. What was the last thing you ate?
+ hmm, nasi ayam and air jagung. sedap!
24. Are you a fast typer?
+ kinda. :)
25. How many speeding tickets do you have?
+ none
26. What are you doing tonight?
+ install new stuff for the new laptop yo!
27. If you had one whole day to yourself, what would you do?
+ rest. haha.
28. Is anything bothering you?
+ not really.
29. Do you miss someone?
+ yes
30. What do you want to do right now?
+ go somewhere else, holidays!
31. Are you listening to music right now?
+ nope.
32. Are you in a good mood?
+ guess so.
33. What are you doing this weekend?
+ out with the uitm peeps. *rindu*
34. Are you talking to anyone while doing this?
+ nope
35. When were you the saddest in your life?
+ haha, hmm. fail heat transfer, then the thing that happened this year.
36. Do you own more than one cell phone?
+ yes, two. one bill one prepaid.
37. Do you use EBay to buy or sell?
+ none
38. What makes you mad?
+ hmm. not that i can think off now
39. Have you ever had a song written about you?
+ hahaha. yeah
40. Have you ever sang in public?
+ yes.
41. What songs make you happy?
+ moccaaaaa!
42. What do you like to listen to before you go to bed?
+ my bedtime playlist
43. Do you have a job?
+ yes
44. What does your ipod have in it right now?
+ lotsa songs. hoho. from oldies to indons to malays to english songs.
45. How many close friends do you have?
+ not much, but they know who they are.
46. What makes you happy?
+ good food good company.
47. One wish?
+ only for me to know.
48. Have you ever loved someone and were too scared to tell them?
+ nope.
49. Next concert?
+ ada ke concert lg lepas nie?!
50. Name one song that explains your current life.
+ hmm. haha. can't think of one. later lor.
+ the uitm peeps.
2. What woke you up this morning?
+ er, alarm clock?
3. If you took a drug test would you pass it?
+ yeah.
4. Is tomorrow going to be a good night?
+ should be. its friday!
5. Did you kiss or hug anyone today?
+ kiss mama's hand before work only.
6. Who was the last person you rode in a car with?
+ pakcik cab. haha.
7. How many myspace accounts do you have?
+ none
8. What was your first thought this morning?
+ malasnye nk bgn. its the same thing everyday.
9. Do or did you like school?
+ i love my school days, be it secondary, matrix or university. :)
10. Would you take a bullet for anyone?
+ if its worth it then maybe i guess. *shudders*
11. Where would you like to live?
+ tmn tun dr ismail is the place to be!
12. Do long distance relationships work?
+ depends. it takes 2 people to tango. so yeah. paham2 sendiri lah.
13. What do you want to be when you grow up?
+ haha, doctor. poyo je.
14. Where do you see yourself in 5 years?
+ dubai/qatar? big dreams baby!
15. Who is your number one friend ?
+ mommy
16. Who do you wish you were with right now?
+ keanu reeves. haha.
17. Who was the last person that left you a comment?
+ hmm, tak ingat.
18. How often do you log in to friendster?
+ not that often. facebook yo!
19. Would you rather talk on the phone or chat in IM?:
+ depends.
20. How many car accidents have you been in?
+ none, coz no license maaa. haha. (suka sendiri)
21. Do you listen to music every day?
+ yes. if not i'll die of boredom esp pergi balik office.
22. Do you still go trick or treating?
+ nope
23. What was the last thing you ate?
+ hmm, nasi ayam and air jagung. sedap!
24. Are you a fast typer?
+ kinda. :)
25. How many speeding tickets do you have?
+ none
26. What are you doing tonight?
+ install new stuff for the new laptop yo!
27. If you had one whole day to yourself, what would you do?
+ rest. haha.
28. Is anything bothering you?
+ not really.
29. Do you miss someone?
+ yes
30. What do you want to do right now?
+ go somewhere else, holidays!
31. Are you listening to music right now?
+ nope.
32. Are you in a good mood?
+ guess so.
33. What are you doing this weekend?
+ out with the uitm peeps. *rindu*
34. Are you talking to anyone while doing this?
+ nope
35. When were you the saddest in your life?
+ haha, hmm. fail heat transfer, then the thing that happened this year.
36. Do you own more than one cell phone?
+ yes, two. one bill one prepaid.
37. Do you use EBay to buy or sell?
+ none
38. What makes you mad?
+ hmm. not that i can think off now
39. Have you ever had a song written about you?
+ hahaha. yeah
40. Have you ever sang in public?
+ yes.
41. What songs make you happy?
+ moccaaaaa!
42. What do you like to listen to before you go to bed?
+ my bedtime playlist
43. Do you have a job?
+ yes
44. What does your ipod have in it right now?
+ lotsa songs. hoho. from oldies to indons to malays to english songs.
45. How many close friends do you have?
+ not much, but they know who they are.
46. What makes you happy?
+ good food good company.
47. One wish?
+ only for me to know.
48. Have you ever loved someone and were too scared to tell them?
+ nope.
49. Next concert?
+ ada ke concert lg lepas nie?!
50. Name one song that explains your current life.
+ hmm. haha. can't think of one. later lor.
Monday, October 13, 2008
what happens when you're bored at work.
♥ If you could spend one ringgit in 5 minutes, what would you spend on?
sweets la kut. what else.
♥ What is your most favorite thing to do?
makaaaan. (which explains everything ey)
♥ What kind of news do you read?
almost everything except for sports.
♥ What would you give up in return to eat all you want in the world and not get fat?
hmmm. malas nk pikir pls.
♥ Is there someone in your heart right now?
hmm. such a complicated question. next!
♥ Do you believe you can survive without money?
kinda i guess.
♥ What are you afraid to lose the most?
My faith
♥ What do you feel like doing right now?
balik rmh.
♥ If there's someone that you love,would you confess to him/her?
big YES!
♥ List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you.
no one tagged also, im just bored
♥ What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?
understanding and loyal.
♥ What is the thing that will make you think he/she is bad?
backstabbing peeps. people who seduce other people's bf. remember karma?
♥ If you had to eat one thing for the rest of your life, what would it be?
fast fooood.
♥ If you had a choice to be rich or happy,which one would you pick?
happy, no doubt.
♥ If you have a chance, which part of your character you would like to change?
i'd like to have the ability to speak up and fight for what i believe in.
♥ Who is the person that you can share all your problems with?
mom and besties.
♥ How do you see yourself in 10 years time?
married. hahaha. right.
♥ What is the one thing you love about yourself?
hmm. not sure lor.
♥ If you can bring only one thing along with you to another world,what would it be?
plants? (wall-e)
♥ 7 Tags
Whoever feels like it
SURVEY #2
RULE #1 People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any 1 question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.
RULE #2 Tag 5 people to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by and continue this game by sending it to other people.
1. If your lover betrayed you,what will be your reaction be?
hmm, pissed. like really pissed off. then tamo kawan dah. haha.
2. If you can have a dream come true,what would it be?
offshoreeeee!
3. Whose butt would you like to kick?
a certain someone.
4. What would you do with a million dollars?
donate, give mom and bros. get married. haha. and invest the money and do nothing.
5. Do you go for your friends ex?
i hope not
6. Which is more blessed,loving someone or being loved by someone?
both. its not easy no doubt. bt the feeling of having someone is just truly wonderful although you spend most of your time fighting, bt knowing that he'll always be with you no matter what is oh so best. sigh.
7. How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
hmm. depends i guess.
8. If the person you secretly love is already attached, what would you do?
nothing, pray for his happiness. what else. takkan nk seduce balik. kan kan?
9. What do you pray each day for your loved ones?
all the happiness and success in the world.
10. Name a place where u want to be right now
you know where.
11. How would you see yourself in ten years time?
an accomplished engineer preferably in the ong industry. a good wife/mother. :D
12. What do you really want at the moment of responding to this tag?
last week.
13. What kind of person do you think who tagged you is?
no one tagged. just bored.
14. Would you rather be single but rich OR married but poor?
hmm. tough choice. married bt poor kut. i mean money is not everything, happiness lg best.
15. Whats the first thing you do when you wake up?
on laptop. toilet.
16. Would you give all in a relationship?
oh yes. insyallah.
17. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously,who would you pick?
haha, what a q. i'd make a list of pros and cons. then decide from there i guess. or ikut kata hati. mana yg lagi rasa butterfly in the stomach. haha
18. Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing that someone has done?
although it hurts? yes. especially those i really care about. been there done that.
19. Did you have a good childhood/teen age?
not too bad. :D
20. What is your favourite kuih raya?
tart nanas, moms bonbon, chocolate fingers, nestum, cornflakes.
sweets la kut. what else.
♥ What is your most favorite thing to do?
makaaaan. (which explains everything ey)
♥ What kind of news do you read?
almost everything except for sports.
♥ What would you give up in return to eat all you want in the world and not get fat?
hmmm. malas nk pikir pls.
♥ Is there someone in your heart right now?
hmm. such a complicated question. next!
♥ Do you believe you can survive without money?
kinda i guess.
♥ What are you afraid to lose the most?
My faith
♥ What do you feel like doing right now?
balik rmh.
♥ If there's someone that you love,would you confess to him/her?
big YES!
♥ List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you.
no one tagged also, im just bored
♥ What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?
understanding and loyal.
♥ What is the thing that will make you think he/she is bad?
backstabbing peeps. people who seduce other people's bf. remember karma?
♥ If you had to eat one thing for the rest of your life, what would it be?
fast fooood.
♥ If you had a choice to be rich or happy,which one would you pick?
happy, no doubt.
♥ If you have a chance, which part of your character you would like to change?
i'd like to have the ability to speak up and fight for what i believe in.
♥ Who is the person that you can share all your problems with?
mom and besties.
♥ How do you see yourself in 10 years time?
married. hahaha. right.
♥ What is the one thing you love about yourself?
hmm. not sure lor.
♥ If you can bring only one thing along with you to another world,what would it be?
plants? (wall-e)
♥ 7 Tags
Whoever feels like it
SURVEY #2
RULE #1 People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any 1 question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.
RULE #2 Tag 5 people to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by and continue this game by sending it to other people.
1. If your lover betrayed you,what will be your reaction be?
hmm, pissed. like really pissed off. then tamo kawan dah. haha.
2. If you can have a dream come true,what would it be?
offshoreeeee!
3. Whose butt would you like to kick?
a certain someone.
4. What would you do with a million dollars?
donate, give mom and bros. get married. haha. and invest the money and do nothing.
5. Do you go for your friends ex?
i hope not
6. Which is more blessed,loving someone or being loved by someone?
both. its not easy no doubt. bt the feeling of having someone is just truly wonderful although you spend most of your time fighting, bt knowing that he'll always be with you no matter what is oh so best. sigh.
7. How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
hmm. depends i guess.
8. If the person you secretly love is already attached, what would you do?
nothing, pray for his happiness. what else. takkan nk seduce balik. kan kan?
9. What do you pray each day for your loved ones?
all the happiness and success in the world.
10. Name a place where u want to be right now
you know where.
11. How would you see yourself in ten years time?
an accomplished engineer preferably in the ong industry. a good wife/mother. :D
12. What do you really want at the moment of responding to this tag?
last week.
13. What kind of person do you think who tagged you is?
no one tagged. just bored.
14. Would you rather be single but rich OR married but poor?
hmm. tough choice. married bt poor kut. i mean money is not everything, happiness lg best.
15. Whats the first thing you do when you wake up?
on laptop. toilet.
16. Would you give all in a relationship?
oh yes. insyallah.
17. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously,who would you pick?
haha, what a q. i'd make a list of pros and cons. then decide from there i guess. or ikut kata hati. mana yg lagi rasa butterfly in the stomach. haha
18. Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing that someone has done?
although it hurts? yes. especially those i really care about. been there done that.
19. Did you have a good childhood/teen age?
not too bad. :D
20. What is your favourite kuih raya?
tart nanas, moms bonbon, chocolate fingers, nestum, cornflakes.
Sunday, October 12, 2008
Friday, October 3, 2008
wondering the what ifs.
pretty quiet raya this year.
things are somehow different too. previously i did mention how raya never excites me anymore. but yeah, things are pretty different now. i'm not too sure why though.
but nevertheless, Syawal being bulan yg mulia, bulan yg baik utk bermaaf maafan, i took this opportunity to forgive and forget everyone else's wrongdoings and asked for their forgiveness for any of my wrongdoings too. and it felt good. it felt really really good actually. :)
on the first day of raya itself, i received a msg from a certain someone whom i respect so much. and somehow it felt so sad and terharu; mixed feelings lah. and yesterday too. :) somehow it felt just like the old days. hehe. i miss that.
sigh
p/s on a different note, im gonna be an aunty soon! insyallah the cousin will give birth to the first cicit of the family either today or tomorrow. can't wait! was thinking of what he shud call me when the others decided that it would be either wan ya (for yaya obviously) or wanchor. haha. then mama will be tok chor. daymn. i sounded old.
things are somehow different too. previously i did mention how raya never excites me anymore. but yeah, things are pretty different now. i'm not too sure why though.
but nevertheless, Syawal being bulan yg mulia, bulan yg baik utk bermaaf maafan, i took this opportunity to forgive and forget everyone else's wrongdoings and asked for their forgiveness for any of my wrongdoings too. and it felt good. it felt really really good actually. :)
on the first day of raya itself, i received a msg from a certain someone whom i respect so much. and somehow it felt so sad and terharu; mixed feelings lah. and yesterday too. :) somehow it felt just like the old days. hehe. i miss that.
sigh
p/s on a different note, im gonna be an aunty soon! insyallah the cousin will give birth to the first cicit of the family either today or tomorrow. can't wait! was thinking of what he shud call me when the others decided that it would be either wan ya (for yaya obviously) or wanchor. haha. then mama will be tok chor. daymn. i sounded old.
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