last few days, my mom sort of tagged me in a video. me and the 2nd brother to be exact. knowing that the internet connection at home mcm ciput and that office telah mem"block" facebook, i didn't even bother to check it out. all i know is that it's about Cesarean.

so just now, while waiting for Maghrib, as we we're watching tv, mom suddenly said to Fariz: "Azalia ni mesti tk tengok video tu" as there was no reply/response from me. feeling guilty, i did just that.

and it was truly traumatizing/mesmerizing/wonderful, i know how it's like, and by that i mean i know that C-section means just operate. and that's it. but watching that video and listening to mom reminiscing how we were born, i can't help it but to amazed, to respect all the mothers out there. i was feeling a lot of things that time, disgusted, scared, but at the time sad and happy.

seeing how difficult the procedure, giving birth, i wonder how does people could just abandon their baby so easily.

so sad. it really is.