dedicated to the bf

muhammad syahir

the one who knows me well, the one whom i think of the early in the morning, the one i call/msg every morning so that he would wake up, the one i play online pool with, the one who sometimes would intentionally lose so that i could earn more points (online pool), the one who would let me pinch him when i'm shy or being teased by anybody, the one who kisses my hair when we were waiting for lifts, the one who would bring me to his house to lepak with his family, the one whom family i love, the one whom i would buy sweets for, the one who would layan my naughty little cousin, the one who would go with me anywhere i want to, the one i study with in kgns, the one who would accompany me when i'm too nervous to go to the clinic, the one who would buy mcdonalds for me after futsal and sent it over to the house, the one with great football skills though not so great with juggling and stuff, the one who's a big MAN U fan, the one who is stylish, the one who would send me to shah alam and never complains, the one who is loved by my own family and the extended family, the one who would hold my hand in cinema, the one who would watch ghost movie with me even though he does not like to watch it, the one with the funny eating habit, the one who would go ou or any shopping malls with me for fun, the one whom i share double cheese naan with, the one who love me conditionally, the one who would drive slowly in front my house so that he could see me from afar when we're fighting (sweeet b!), the one who would never say i'm fat though i am, the one who would always say that i'm beautiful, the one who had surprised me with tickets to boyz II men concert, the one who would find a way so that i could go to muse concert, the one who takes care of me during the concert, the one who hold me tight when i tried to ikat my shoe, the one whom i know would never ever cheat on me, the one whom i love too much and the list just go on and on.

i just want to say thank you for everything, for trusting in me by giving me another chance, i'm not going to promise, but i will definitely try and won't blow this off again, the pain i felt when you're gone is indescribable, the thought of crying every day scares the shit out of me. the happy me is when you're with me. i love u so much baby and i thank God for this opportunity of meeting, getting to know you, dating you and i just CANNOT wait to marry you. remember our plans sayang. i'll make sure it will come true, and i know you will too. =) this small heart of mine is definitely for you. love you forever...