what do you think about relationships? seriously i want to know.

cause now i'm beginning to have this thoughts, this bad bad thoughts.

sometimes i feel like i am too young to have this serious relationship, sometimes i feel like ending it all.

told my mom about it, and you know what she said?

she said "i told you so".

sigh

i'm 22 for goodness sakes! the world is big out there and i choose to be in the smallest place ever imagined. i choose to be in a relationship. i choose to limit myself from friends and life. unconsciously of course.

i need to learn to balance both relationship and friendship. but its hard right? i've lost a friend because of him. i have no life because of him.

sometimes i feel like to me, he's my everything, but to him, i'm not his everything. there's always his friends, his life and i have to follow his steps and ignored mine. like a stupid zombie.

then maybe you might ask, why stay when you're not happy?

3 years. 3 years down the drain.

hmm, looks like i'll continue being a zombie then.

currently depressed.
currently listening to: i'm moving on by rascal flatts.