somehow i'm glad to know that i'm not alone. in this situation that is. can't help it but to wonder if the friends girlfriends feels the way i do. and surprisingly yes they do! yeay! i'm not trying to provoke them with the questions i have in my mind. i was afraid at first, to ask her the question. cause you see, we never talk about our relationships with each other. but somehow i feel like i need to know how she feels regarding this. so she said she knows how i feel. cause they're having the same situation too. and i wonder if all guys are like these.

he took advantage of my tak kisah attitude. but now i'm going to rebel. echeh! ooh when i tell him how much he pentingkan his friends yesterday, do you know what he said? he said we're not husband and wife. we're not married. if we are then it'll be different. he'll be with me at all times. and i said, knowing you, it'll be the same. he kept quiet for a while. sigh.

me and the never ending drama.

before this, it'll always be him and futsal/football.

and now, him and his friends. remember his friend who asked me to give him some space, well he just broke up with his gf a few months ago. what if they're still together? i'm sure they pretty much spend most of their time together. kan? and now, just because he's no longer with him, does my bf have to his gf now?

//updated

i can't knock some sense in his head. all he say is "cari la kawan you". he won't change one bit. i told him, at this point i can't see myself marrying him. and he said, then takyah la pikir jauh jauh. and i said i will. and from now on, i will. with this new sem coming, i'll find my friends. i'll make new friends. i'll go out with anyone i like, cause heck he doesn't give a damn about me. it'll take time i know, but like i said to him, i'l find myself again.